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I just wrote about 3 full paragraphs, but then I erased it all because it was entirely uninteresting. Lately, it feels like everyday is exactly the same. And while I love being a stay-at-home mommy, I struggle with feeling stranded out in the country, far from town, friends and civilization. It makes for very limited adult interaction for myself, which puts a lot of pressure on Nick when he gets home from work… because he’s my primary source of entertainment. But by the time he gets home from work, he’s exhausted and wants to relax and watch TV. I on the other hand want to have conversation or work on a piece of furniture together, etc.

Additionally, I feel guilty for not contributing to income. And yet, with all my ‘time to think’ during the day, I conjure up tons of fun creative projects around the house that I’d like to work on. My projects are almost always extremely thrifty and DIY… yet a couple cans of spraypaint here, and some decopauge there… well lets just say it all adds up. So I have to be careful how ambitious I am creatively, and consider the full picture. Some projects will just have to be on hold for now I guess, while we buckle down and banish our student loans forever! I have to be careful not to let my creative mind negatively affect our family budget. Especially when I’m not making any money at home all day!

I will say that I’m planning to paint the walls in the bedroom sooner than later. And that dreaded china cabinet is almost done (we had some broken glass issues that delayed things slightly… ok a LOT), so don’t climb under your desk and have a breakdown and start emotionally eating your kids’ Halloween candy. I’m not breaking up with DIY. Just thinking out loud over here.

I’m half tempted to erase these 3 paragraphs too, because it’s all nonsense. But I won’t. Cause then I would have to write something else.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/16864145753511753895 Christine Roberts

    I have felt exactly the same way Beth! (even living in town!) its hard working a full time job that you don’t get a paycheck for. I have to keep reminding myself that this is what God has called me to do. It also means the world to me when Chris verbalizes to me that he is happy that i’m at home and he brings home a paycheck, and that this is what is best for our family. You are doing a great job with your girls, Beth! Your dedication and love to them truly shines through this blog and when I see you take care of them on Tuesdays and Muggsdays. And even though your babies can’t talk yet, know that they are so wild about hanging out with their mommy (their favorite person!) all day!

  • http://randomcreativity.wordpress.com/ randomcreativity

    It was really hard for me to get used to staying home, and I felt guilty for a while because I wasn’t making any money. But if you think of what it would cost to have someone else watch your babies, and eat more convenience foods since you wouldn’t have as much time to cook, the cost of gas to get to work, etc, you are probably saving a lot. And you get to spend much more time with your precious children and husband, which is worth more than an additional income.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/18394206642856626606 518Interiors

    I am in the same place, Bethany. But I’m in town and still feel isolated. Know that this (emotions, worry, etc..) is COMPLETELY normal right now. It’s so very, very hard when your kids are small!!!

  • Anonymous

    Definately felt the same way when my kiddos were small, not that they are old now. I would put them in the car and went for a drive to feel like I was getting out of the house. Once they were older I checked out the library for storytime or went to the mall to walk then to the grocery store to get my fruit and milk….not sure how many miles you have to travel. Donna

  • Anonymous

    It’s still fun to read your thoughts even though you don’t think it’s interesting. Life is generally boring with a little excitement thrown in every once in a while! ;)
    I can sympathize and relate to your stranded feelings and lack of adult interaction. You are not alone in that! Have a good week and give the girls a kiss fo me!
    Love Crystal

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/12462291623408071858 pattie

    Wow, I felt like I was reading my own words there for a second! As others have already said, what you’re feeling is normal..it’s just a season of life. That doesn’t make it any easier when you’re in the thick of it, but it will get better:)
    When my babies were about 6 mos old and I was very nearly at the end of my rope, I took advantage of family nearby and arranged for hubs and I to have a weekly date night. Even if all we did was eat a dollar menu burger and sit in the park and talk about our kids, it was so great to be alone together and be “just us”…of course it’s not always easy to be away from the babies, but if you can make it work, it’s so worth it!:)

  • Anonymous

    I love reading your posts- and would say that I would totally buy some of your crafty projects. that could give you something to do, and help you feel like you are helping with the income!

  • Anonymous

    I love reading your posts. They are not uninteresting, just truthful. Does your town have a “Mom’s Club?” If not, maybe you can start one? :) Mary M.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/06287753203188658768 Beautiful Haven

    I’m feeling your pain. I take my baby to the mall and just walk around to get exercise now that the weather is cold. I love being with her so much, but miss working and contributing to our income. I miss adult interaction alot, but knew at the end of the day it’s what is best for her.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/09680393345020556391 Katie

    I’ve been there, done that, didn’t even get a t-shirt. I live 40 miles from town, no car, just me and the kid – he’s in school all day now and I found a call center work from home job, but I’m still the only adult here 6 days a week for up to 16 hours a day.

    You have my empathy.